Feb 5th...11 years later.

"If Tomorrow Never Comes"

Sometimes late at night
I lie awake and watch her sleeping
She's lost in peaceful dreams
So I turn out the lights and lay there in the dark
And the thought crosses my mind
If I never wake up in the morning
Would she ever doubt the way I feel
About her in my heart

If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face this world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes

'Cause I've lost loved ones in my life
Who never knew how much I loved them
Now I live with the regret
That my true feelings for them never were revealed
So I made a promise to myself
To say each day how much she means to me
And avoid that circumstance
Where there's no second chance to tell her how I feel

If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face this world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes

So tell that someone that you love
Just what you're thinking of
If tomorrow never comes

 

 

"If Tomorrow Never Comes"..Garth Brooks sang this song and it was actually one of my Daddy's favorite songs.  He would sing this to us often, along the "The Dance" sang by Garth as well.  I think these lyrics sum up a lot. 

 

My Daddy never missed the opportunity to tell us or show us that he LOVED us...there wasn't a day that went by that he didn't say these three simple words...I LOVE YOU.  He not only told us...but he proved it by all that he did. 

 

He was a man of honor and respect.  He was a man that didn't know a stranger.  He was a man that stood up for what was right.  He was a man that believed in making a difference. He was a man that gave the BEST hugs.  He was a man that would give you the shirt off his back.  He was a man that loved my Mama.  He was a man that loved his family.  He was a man that worked many hours for his fire district.  He was a man of FAITH.  He was a man that was loved by so many.  He was a man that wore many coats...from farmer to fire chief.  But most importantly...this man was my DADDY. 

 

I still can't believe that it has been 11 years since I last heard him tell me on that Wednesday afternoon of Feb. 5, 2003...that he would see us for dinner and ended it with...I LOVE YOU.  To the someone that told me it gets easier after you lose a loved one...you lied!  (Daddy always hated liars-ha!)  It has not gotten easier. In fact some days get harder as the days turn into weeks...weeks into months...and months turn into years.  I just find ways to cope with the loss of my Daddy...but let me tell you...it's NOT easy. 

 

He rode out that Wednesday afternoon on his fire-engine red "special fire-fighter edition" Harley...never to return home...instead to meet our dear Lord. 

 

I know he has continued to be with us...just wish I could get at least a few more hugs.  His hugs were the best!!! 

 

Until we meet again...Thinking of you today and always.  Thank you for being the BEST Daddy anyone could ask for.  Thank you for being my HERO. Thank you for being YOU!

 

Until next time...tell that someone that you love...just what you're thinking of...
If tomorrow never comes.