Songs...will YOU pray?

Many of you know that I relate a lot of  "my life" to songs...I think I will start sharing at least a song a week to let you know what I am relating "my life" to maybe at a particular time.

Well with that being said...I have contemplated on whether or not I should mention this...but instead of sitting here and worrying for the next 2 weeks...I am coming to ALL of YOU. I am asking that you pray...and pray some more. You share this blog on and get more people to pray.

As you all know I have to get my labs taken before I start any chemo.  They are concerned with my blood counts making sure they are high enough to receive chemo. Along with my complete blood count...they are interested in checking my liver function and of course my "tumor-marker" my CA19-9.

You are all mostly aware of the reason why I went for a "2nd opinion"...that was the fact that my CA19-9 kept creeping up...a little at a time...but it has been creepin. Which I really haven't shared this...because "some" will  talk and I don't need the negativity...I ONLY need positive vibes and people in my life that truly care...those that are here to help me, pray for me, send me texts from the heart, emails that mean so much, cards in the mail, surprise gifts in the mail, and phone calls that brighten me day. (Believe me...I appreciate them all...you'll never know how much you all mean to me.)

I have to remind you that when I was first diagnosed back in November 2012 the CA19-9 was at 1617.  The "normal" should be under 36.  So ummmm yea...that is a concern...well then I had the WHIPPLE and my counts dropped to 121.  I began chemo and radiation and it bounced around back to over 1000 and then back to the hundreds...then as low as 54...but it started to climb...and has been climbing for a handful of months now.

My count as of yesterday is at 471.  My awesome team of doctors mentioned at my last treatment 2 weeks ago that if this round showed an increase still...scans would be ordered.  Well as you can see...they are elevated...so in 2 weeks I will have had 2 months worth of this "go-round" of chemo...so I will have a PET scan prior to round 5...yes, on the same day even...we will determine if there is...DON'T even want to say this "C" anywhere else...and if this regime of chemo is what is best for me.

NO...this isn't a "I am giving up" post...instead it is a "I am a bit discouraged" hoping that this chemo is what I need to be doing since it has been so brutal on my body.  I am posting this because I know I have a TEAM behind me that prayers, cares, and loves me...I need YOU all more than ever to send me positive vibes and prayers.  I need to feel at peace these next 2 weeks as I am dealing with this round of chemo and "trying" to get the what-ifs out of my mind...before I have another PET scan. 

 I pray that this is what I need to be doing... I pray that God continues to give me strength as I deal with this fight...I continue to pray for my babies that they continue to be strong as they are 2 of the toughest little girls you'll meet...I continue to pray for my doctors that they are so knowledgeable and never lose hope on me...I pray for my family and friends that are watching me fight this battle...I pray for a CURE!

Until next time...I will remind myself of this...I can. I will.  Phil.4:13